I hope you all had a wonderful Singles Awareness Day! Mine pretty much sucked. That one guy I had a little bit of hope for told me that he met someone else he’s crazy about. So that’s it… Single for me for a long time…
That guy and my sister didn’t work out either. He left a day early. I was sad for her, but relieved that I could sleep again. I knew he wasn’t her type.
It snowed here the other night. And what did I do? I stood outside in it and cried. We never get snow, so when we do, it’s usually a very exciting thing. I tried to dance in it to cheer myself up, but I found myself unable to move as a sadness fell over me. My heart was crying out to him… the man I’m supposed to be with… my ultimate soulmate. I let myself call out to him and could feel his heart breaking. I hoped that by speaking into the wind that his heart might sense mine calling to him. I tried to console him and tell him that I am still waiting for him. I told him to not give up and to please come find me, because I’m too broken to keep searching.
I don’t know who he is or what he looks like, but a very small part of me still believes he’s out there somewhere and that he will find me. I just hope he does before I really don’t want to be with anyone anymore. There are a few men in my life that are pursuing me, but I just don’t feel it with them. I have developed some feelings for my best friend, but I just don’t think he’s the right one for me. I know it hurts him that I think this way, but he knows I do. Maybe things will change, but I don’t see us together. It sure would be an interesting story if we ended up together. He’s just too young for me.
I’m so thankful to have yoga, ballet, and my family right now. I would not survive this season of my life without them. And, thank you all out there for reading my thoughts. Sending them out there really is comforting for some reason, even if no one comments.